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Just as a "KIND" reminder to all those MLP fans who absolutely hate the Changelings' new design:  Remember all of the characters from the show are DIRECTED at KIDS.  
I DREW A PONEH!
GOSH, have I ever told ya'll how much horses, especially CARTOON ponies, are a pain in the butt for me to draw?  WELL, HERE YOU HAVE IT!  I make such simple drawn figure so bloody hard because I want the anatomy, basically everything JUST right or else is going to drive me bonkers!

I told myself, when I began to get frustrated drawing the back to "JUST FREAKIN' DRAW! YOU CAN FIX THE DETAILS LATER!"  So, so done 

ANYWAY, here is the FIRST OFFICIAL drawn look of my Changeling Flutterpony hybrid, Carnelian Czech!  PLEASE ENJOY!

And...offer me some nice critique please.  ^_^

Carnelian Czech belongs to me; :iconcitruseucalyptus:

Please do not copy or claim as your own!

Thank you!
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I guess I'm just a stupid whiny white bit.
Warning: HEAVY MINDLESS RANTING!

I tried to do the same last night, but I never did finish writing everything out, so I'd rather start with a new slate.

Nobody like to be a punching bug or a venting post, but sometimes you just can't help it when someone you haven't talked to on the phone in two months starting screaming/crying in your ear about the rough week they had.   Now since last night I've felt even worse because of worrying about them, beating myself up, then praying for them before I went sleep.

I don't like to rant and I try not to because I want history to be repeating itself, but now I feel like I don't have the right to speak or vent about my feelings because I don't want to sound like THEM! This is SO wrong and I know it, and Lord forgive me, I'm screaming in my mind that THEY don't matter.   THEY don't matter to me because all I want is for THEIR voice, THEIR crying to GET OUT OF MY HEAD!
 
I have always been quiet about I felt because that's part of my personality.  I learned the hard way to grow a tough skin throughout all my years attending public middle and high school and even here on the Internet.  You know what! I actually feel alone on the Internet!  I feel like everybody either secretly hates me or flat out avoids me like the plague!

I try so dam hard to remember that everyone has their own problems and their own life, so that I don't become that whiny friend that constantly needs talking too! I'm so used to not having anybody to go to town or simply hang out with that being completely alone is just the norm with me.

I hate being selfish, I hate being seen or heard as selfish, and I hate FEELING selfish but you can't help it when you don't want to deal with anyone's drama.  I hate feeling like I have to LASH OUT in order to get somebody to notice.  I hate feeling actually how another person feels! 

I hate having to feel ignored.  I hate having to lie or bottle up my emotions so that I can pretend that everything's OK and not everyone hates me.  I hate...feeling weak.  I hate feeling disgusting.  I hate ranting.  I hate recognizing everything that is wrong with me, and I hate it when people have to see it too.
Warning: HEAVY MINDLESS RANTING!

I tried to do the same last night, but I never did finish writing everything out, so I'd rather start with a new slate.

Nobody like to be a punching bug or a venting post, but sometimes you just can't help it when someone you haven't talked to on the phone in two months starting screaming/crying in your ear about the rough week they had.   Now since last night I've felt even worse because of worrying about them, beating myself up, then praying for them before I went sleep.

I don't like to rant and I try not to because I want history to be repeating itself, but now I feel like I don't have the right to speak or vent about my feelings because I don't want to sound like THEM! This is SO wrong and I know it, and Lord forgive me, I'm screaming in my mind that THEY don't matter.   THEY don't matter to me because all I want is for THEIR voice, THEIR crying to GET OUT OF MY HEAD!
 
I have always been quiet about I felt because that's part of my personality.  I learned the hard way to grow a tough skin throughout all my years attending public middle and high school and even here on the Internet.  You know what! I actually feel alone on the Internet!  I feel like everybody either secretly hates me or flat out avoids me like the plague!

I try so dam hard to remember that everyone has their own problems and their own life, so that I don't become that whiny friend that constantly needs talking too! I'm so used to not having anybody to go to town or simply hang out with that being completely alone is just the norm with me.

I hate being selfish, I hate being seen or heard as selfish, and I hate FEELING selfish but you can't help it when you don't want to deal with anyone's drama.  I hate feeling like I have to LASH OUT in order to get somebody to notice.  I hate feeling actually how another person feels! 

I hate having to feel ignored.  I hate having to lie or bottle up my emotions so that I can pretend that everything's OK and not everyone hates me.  I hate...feeling weak.  I hate feeling disgusting.  I hate ranting.  I hate recognizing everything that is wrong with me, and I hate it when people have to see it too.

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CitrusEucalyptus
Just call me "CE"
Artist | Professional | Varied
United States
Hello and welcome to my page.

I am a professional varied artist, so please expect many attributes to different fandoms while you view my Gallery, Favorites, and Scraps.

Although, to most of you, I am just a 'Newbie' on DeviantArt, however, I am actually a very seasoned member of this site.

"Why did you leave...?" you ask? To put it simply, I found myself very tired of being stuck in an endless loop and felt that it was time for me to move on.

To put bluntly, I take a long time to warm up to new people. I will be nice and respond back if you start a conversation with me, however, if you start to be rude I will tell you off. I'm not and will never be a doormat for anyone.

I'm very serious when it comes to the well-being and emotional state of those that have proven themselves to be my friends.

(Update: 7/2/2016)

corrupted cynder is not sexy stamp by Warrioratheart anti spyro + cynder porn stamp by Warrioratheart

(Update: 7/16/2016)

KJV Bible Verses.

Lamentations 3:22-23

"It is of the Lord's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. "

Hebrews 6:13-14

"For when God made promise to Abraham, because he could swear by no greater, he sware by himself. Saying, Surely blessing I will bless thee, and multiplying I will multiply thee."

Romans 10:3

"For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved."

Psalm 16: 11

"Thou wilt show me the path of life: in thy presence is fullness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore."

Proverbs 3: 5-6

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths."
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ShadOBabe Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey there!!
Thanks for the faves!! X3
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CitrusEucalyptus Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2017  Professional General Artist
You're very welcome!
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scrubbydoodles Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:hug: :huggle: :happybounce: 
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CitrusEucalyptus Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2017  Professional General Artist
^_^  Thank you very much for the watch!
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scrubbydoodles Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
of course ^-^ :hug:
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CitrusEucalyptus Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2017  Professional General Artist
:)
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Benthehyena Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the watch !
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CitrusEucalyptus Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2017  Professional General Artist
Welcome.
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Yentl-Star Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2017  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for the fave :D
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CitrusEucalyptus Featured By Owner Feb 12, 2017  Professional General Artist
You're very welcome, Yentl.
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